Okay serious second thoughts

I was reading over my last blog entry and I did NOT like what I saw. This negativity is definitely not the real me. I gave this thought for hours and I decided that it was pure defensiveness. So from now on, I will strive to be a way less defensive Tanster. I do appreciate that no one is reading this and that's cool.

The way I see it, if I'm down on myself there's no need for any additional abuse from you the people out there. No more, my friends. I am drunk right now. Little queasy in the belly but I wanted you to know that there will be a concerted effort to curtail the defensiveness.

I was at BJs and some fat old lady said "excuse me for living!!!" because I was trying to get around her. That really pissed me off. Anyway, that's a tangent best left for no where and nothing. Let's all let that go. By that I mean me. I hate having run ins with people. Some people are just looking for a fight.

This whole blog is so SELF INDULGENT ooooh! Me, me, me, oooooh.

I read celestine proprecy and thought it was really PSEUDO intellectual but there was that point about the different mechanism one uses to get attention: poor me, abuser, aloof, stuff like that. My last post was so "poor me". Let's not do that, okay?